Year End Meme

First Lines of 2005 Posts

January: I had a Diet Coke this morning with my bagel.

February: I do monthly breast self-exams (and you should too!)

March: I am a really shitty blogger.

April: 26w3d, for those keeping track.

May: -no posts at all in May!-

June: My life is very boring and is totally focused on the impending arrival of the occupant.

July: Remember my sweet infertility puppy Santana?

August: So! We had a baby!

September: Its been one month (and 2 days) since we first saw your face.

October: Oh, there is so much I want to talk about.

November: One year (and 3 days) ago, I went to see a new, holistic doctor after giving Yoda the boot.

December: I'm very embarassed to see its been 2 months since I posted.


Pretty boring. I should do another one where I pick the best lines of the month, or the ones that I think capture the feeling and mood of the time when I wrote them. Maybe I'll do that one of these days.

You may have noticed that almost all of my archives are gone.
Someone else I know in real life found my blog. I was actually really pissed off about it, which is quite ridiculous since I use my real name and have pictures of myself posted all over the damn place. Its not like I was making any effort to be anonymous. But somehow, I still feel like someone just read my diary. It just feels a lot different to share such intimate details with relative strangers, than to share it with people I have to face.
So, I took down the archives. Unfortunately, I think I lost all the comments on them when I did it, which really sucks.
When I look at my Statcounter page, I will often see that someone has spent hours reading all of my archives. I was sad to take them down because I hope that they are helping the people who read them.
I've said before that I'm going to be making some changes, but I'm not sure how its all going to go. I've thought of going password protected, but if I'd done that in the beginning, I would never have "met" such amazing women. I've thought of starting a new blog, and reposting all the archives, with names and pictures removed. I'm just not sure what to do. I guess I'll figure it out eventually.
Things in the rest of my life are complicated. Some things I'm not comfortable writing here, though I wish I could. (One more reason I've got to do something with this blog situation)
The worst though, is the passing of my Grandmother. My beloved Grandma, the Grandma of my heart, died on December 20. She was 85 years old, but in good health. She died very suddenly while writing out her Christmas cards. We were very close and I miss her so much already. It was a very melancholy Christmas season, though we did have a good Christmas day-with most of the focus on Gabriel. He was our shining light through the grief of losing my Grandma and our constant reminder that her death is just a part of the circle of life.

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday, and that the New Year brings you whatever you heart desires.

Anyone still out there?

I'm very embarrassed to see that it has been 2 months since I posted. I love to blog and I have lots of ideas floating around my head, but you see, I have an infant who does not nap. And a husband who is gone all the time. And national certification exam in February that I should be spending all my free time studying for.
I have several posts in draft form that may never get finished. Maybe after the holidays and after my exam I'll have a little more time to spend here.
In the mean time, here are a few recent, random pictures.