Confessions at 13w3d

#1. I had a Diet Coke this morning with my bagel. Its the first one I've had since I got pregnant and MAN was it good.

#2. I've been a raving bitch to my husband the last few days. There is too much stuff to get done in our house, and too little time to do it. Meanwhile he plays golf. This irritates me.

#3. I'm still jealous of IF bloggers who get pregnant, who hit milestones in their pregnancies, etc. WTF is the matter with me?

#4. I am wildly jealous of those IF bloggers who are having twins.

#5. I'm still afraid to try on the maternity clothes my mom got me for Christmas.

#6. I like to try to convince myself that I'm "showing" but really, its just all the french fries I've been eating.

#7. I listen to The Gummy's heartbeat so often that I try to hide it from my husband.
I'm desperately afraid I'm hurting The Gummy by subjecting him/her to so much u/s, but I can't seem to help myself. Its the only thing that takes away the DBTs.

#8. I haven't been blogging much because I don't know how to write about being pregnant here.

#9. I still feel like a fraud when I use the word "pregnant" in relation to myself.

#10. I'm very proud that I have, so far, been able to keep the promise I made to myself not to blog about pregnancy related complaints.

#11. The perinatologist says its ok to start having sex again. I'm both afraid to try, and desperately horny.

(Ok, now the Diet Coke has given me a terrible headache. Fucking artificial sweeteners.)